Cycle if life

Alone... Deserted... Lost... Its all coming back again. Life was perfect, i didnt think abt whts gonna happen next, but the same damn thing happened. Life just had to push me till i fall everytime i up almost reaching the sky. Hmm... I can smile, people think im perfect, but no one know the truth underneath...

Where are YOU?

It's sad to see the person you've loved for years change. It's like he/she is there, but it feels like they're so far away. You miss them soo much you just feel like hugging them tight and not letting go. But even if you do, it just doesn't feel like you're hugging them, instead, I feels like your hugging a stranger...

10 things that pisses me off the most

1. Peope babbling 

2. People eating my food. Especially my chocolates

3. Stares and says "ayeee" at my food

4. People talking about how bad others treat them while they treat me the same way

5. People forcing me to do something I refuse to

6. People pushing me aside 

7. People bragging about how good they are while they're not

8. People hating me and say I hate them and I end up hating them after finding out they hate me

9. Stupid people 

10. The word "sukatilah"

Friends

Love...Hate...Stick...

Funny, my friends hate each other, but love more. We talk abt each other behind our backs and still stick as friends. There are times where we just confront with each other, it gets emotional, but in the end, laughter spreads. Unlike what I had before. It was all messy and we fought a lot. Worse part is that they all turn against me in every fight. I'm lucky I got out of that situation for good and met my 2 inseparable friends. Honestly I couldn't ask for anything more. Love them. Thanks A&F. You guys are THE BEST 😇

Half Mugged on Tuesday

I couldn't let a friend walk around the city alone. It's dangerous, so I tagged along. The day was fine, nothing bad happened till we were walking back to the lrt station. I was with my friend Alissa and her cousin Farrah, three of us are 16. As we were walking pass HnM, there were a few Taiwanese walking around asking for donation, as a Malaysian, putting five fingers to ones face is a sign language of it's okay or never mind. So When we were passing by those people, I raised my hand. They did not understand, so one of them went to Alissa, asking for donation. And so did the others, one of them came to me and to Farrah. In my situation, the guy asked whether I'd like to help him "support" his charity, so I thought, why not. But I didn't expect it to be like 20 to 60 bucks. Since I wrote my name. I just had to pull out a 20. I had a good feeling about helping them. But when I looked around. Alissa and Farrah were out of cash. I had no change. Coincidence I found 10 bucks in my bag. So I gave it to Alissa. My god ! They were forcing! When Alissa called my name, the woman was like "no discussion" dafuq?! And when I the guy who was asking Farrah for donation was pissed and like turned away cause he didn get money. I was thinking like fuck you charity. This is threatening. I'm f*cking 16. You expect me to have big amount of cash?! Don't be stupid! You're deaf, God made you that way. Appreciate it, why do you have to brag and beg for money to go through surgery. You're not gonna die dude, it's something that made you special. Live with it. But nooooooooo. You stupid. Then the woman asked for me money, saying pity that guy, he crying already, and kept forcing me to give money. I had like 150 bucks only, which was like me savings, I had to take out 50. Ergh, stupid people. Hate them so much. Trying to get that of my mind and remind myself, I'll get something much more than I gave today someday. Hmmmm... Still pissed...

LIFE IS HARD

Life is hard to go through and its hard to stay strong. There are times you can be strong, but there's also a time when you feel like everything fell apart and cant be as strong as before. I've never been under the spotlight, never been anyones favorite. No one has ever called me smart nor handy. I don't care if its a stranger calling me mean things, but when it comes to someone you love, it hurts so bad like your hearts been stabbed by the sharpest knife ever found on earth. When that someone chooses someone else over you, gives them everything they wanted but saying its not their problem when it comes to you. Calling you stupid and treating you like you're a burden in their lives. Putting the blame on you and not accepting you for who you are. I have never felt so weak, its like I can never stand back up again. Life was never easy for me, to me, life is like an endless war, you can go through it, but you got no weapon, the only way to go through it is to hide. When you're found by the enemy, you run and find other place to hide. Never easy, never in peace. The only thing I want is to end this endless war. But thats impossible to do so.....

THERE'S NO LIMIT IN LOVE

Love has no rights and wrongs, it has no rules nor regulations. No matter how old you are, how far you are, love has always been there. Theres a girl who searched for true love time by time although love hurts her bit by bit. She never gave up looking for that one true love. One day, she met a guy who caught her eye. She got to know him more and more, closer and closer as days past. Without notice, she fell in love. She told him about how she felt, but he just stood and smiled. One day, she went out for a movie with her friends. In the cinema she sat, she looked back and saw him with a girl in his arms. She was hurt, her heart was crushed. Right on the spot, she ran out of the cinema crying. The guy then ran after her, but once he got out, she was nowhere to be found. He tried calling her but she never picked up. He left her a voice message telling her the truth that he has a girlfriend all along. But deep inside he has feelings for her. he could never love his girlfriend like he loved her. Every girl he sees has nothing that she has, she's special and he never wanted to hurt her. He can't leave his girlfriend cause he knows that she loves him so much and and he wont bare to see her hurt. The girl heard the message with full of sincere, no matter how hurt she is, she never stopped loving him. One day, she went back from school walking, the guy called her name, she looked for that voice calling her, but she never found it, a car came crashing while she was still searching. The guy was shocked and ran towards her. Tears start falling, he was sad and felt bad after what he's done. He could have take her as his lover and protect her. But it was too late. Since then, he never loved anyone else except for her. Even though she's gone, he kept loving her. He felt her love still living inside him, its like as if she was still living beside him. Dead or alive, love is always there. Its like the wind, you can't see it but you can always feel it.